unbearable lightness.

Blog Entryadvanced happiness...Oct 17, '08 7:48 AM
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Happy...

Happy to know that people come across our lives because we need them in one way or another...

Happy to meet someone from the past- a name I only know five years ago...

Happy to be reunited with old dreams...

Happy to  comfort a classmate and jokingly say Move on when she started to feel the hollow feeling without him, when in fact I was the one bearing the heaviest steps away...

Happy to be blogging tonight because he reaffirmed my (much-celebrated) opinions about expressing/socializing to keep our sanity...

Happy to feel so empty because of what I've given but so full of what I've taken in...

Happy because tomorrow he will be celebrating his birthday...

Happy to witness a true person...

A real man inspite of everything...

Happy that from earlier this afternoon, all these things will be locked in my memory...

Happy...still.

 

We be of one blood, you and I... -Rudyard Kipling

 

The Verve - The Drugs Dont Work

Blog Entryhodge podgeJul 6, '08 12:14 PM
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Waah... Sa dami naman ng mga dapat ko pang gawin eh nakukuha ko pang mag-blog consistently. Obligasyon ko sa sarili yan bago magpasukan, pero baka maudlot na dahil ang dami ko talagang ginagawa ngayon. Eh 18 units lang naman ako na may isang lab plus 2 pe at nstp. Underload pa nga ako, dapat 21 units kami ngayon. (Paslang ako sa adviser ko.)
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Unique. Ibig sabihin daw nun ay unique ako sabi ng instructor ko sa stat lab.

Hay naku, nagsimula yun sa pulse rate.
Mahigit 40 beats per minute lang daw ako sabi ni groupmate no.1 after two trials.
At dahil nagpapatawa yung isang group, more than 70 beats per minute naman sabi ni groupmate no. 2...
???

Second ang body temp.
Aba, 36.0 deg-C lang ako, hehehe. Ang normal kasi yata ay around 37.0 deg-C...
Marunong naman akong magbasa ng thermometer. Akala ko nga mas mataas pa yung makukuha ko sa normal eh, ang init kasi nun. Eun, tinutukso na ko ng mga groupmates ko na pang-patay daw yun. Rawr.

Lastly, ang waist to hip ratio.
16:1 ang ratio ng within and outside the ideal range sa lab class namin. Syempre ako yung nag-iisa, yung outside sa range ng ideal waist to hip ratio. Huhuhu. Kahit anong gawin kong ulit ng pagsusukat, outside pa din ako sa ideal for women.
Kamusta naman yung ibig sabihin nun?
Sabi nung instructor ko, unique lang daw ako.
Sabi nung lab manual, yung mga outside the ideal daw ay mas prone sa diseases...
at yung mga nasa ideal ay pinanganak daw na mas attractive at mas smart ayon sa study na ginawa.

Hmmmp!
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Tinanong ako ng nanay ko kung umiibig na daw ba ko. (???)
Hindi na daw kasi ako tumaba simula nung magkasakit ako nung bakasyon, tapos lalo pa daw akong pumapayat ngayon.
Ganun din sabi ng tatay ko, ang laki daw ng ipinayat ko.
At kung sino-sino pa ang nagsabi na ang payat-payat ko daw ngayon.
Gusto ko sanang isagot na nangangayayat siguro ako dahil sa sama ng loob.
 
Ano naman kasi ang kinalaman ng pagpayat sa pag-ibig na yan.
Nakarinig na naman tuloy ako ng mga katulad ng Tapusin muna ang pag-aaral.
Ilang ulit ko ng narinig yan. Ilang ulit ng na nabasa. Nasaktan na din ako ng dahil dyan. Pero in my better moments eh naiintindihan ko naman yan.
 
Sabi nung marami, dahil daw sa pag-aaral. Pwede rin. Pakiramdam ko talaga kasi na ang dami-dami kong dapat bawiin, na marami akong nasayang na oras. Nung kausap ko si Kuya Alex through Skype last summer, sinabi niya na wag daw akong nagmamadali sa buhay, na mahaba pa ang panahon.
 
I've read somewhere that There is a big difference between giving up and resigning yourself to things... and I don't know what I just did.

Blog EntryTAGGEDJun 30, '08 11:26 AM
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TAGGED BY gee :)

Rule #1: There are no rules when it comes to freedom of speech. The franker, the better.

Rule #2: Each blogger must repost this entire entry with the names of the people he/she is tagging, attached at the end of this pop quiz.

Rule #3: The blogger must visit the page of each person who he/she has tagged and must give a link directing the person to his/her pop quiz.

Part 1: Complete the sentence

1. My favorite subjects are, GEs, bio, and chem.

2. If I were a teacher, I'd teach bio lab =).

3. The subject that I don't get is math =(.

4. Of all my accomplishments, I am proudest of is, I've learned the limits of human wisdom (Thanks to my wonderful instructor...).

5. Five years from now, I would like to receive my passport- to study outside the country.

6. If I could live another life, I'd still be...

7. I was once mistaken for a University Scholar ;p.

8. The best thing(s) I ever got for free were love from family plus friends and grace from God.

9. My favorite shows are documentaries.

10. One night I want to last forever is that when I was cramming, hehehe.
Part 2: Complete the equation

via + 'future husband'= perfect chemistry, hehehe...                                                           

via + carba = ano yung carba?!
via + sweets = minatamis na asukal
via + WONDERFUL = wonder woman ;p
via + high school friends = happy, happy!

Part 3: Enumeration

Places you'd like to go on for vacation:

1. Batangas
2. Pangasinan
3. Bataan
4. New Jersey
5. South Korea
6. Japan
7. Paris
8. London
9. China

Gifts you'd like to receive:

1. books
2. clothes
3. shoes
4. watches


Food you would wanna eat forever:

1.chocolate
2. carbs 3. fruits 4.desserts!

Things you'll do when you aced all your grades:

1. wear a big smile :D
2. give thanks to the ultimate source of knowledge :)


The people who you are tagging:

1. amyel
2. ess
3. jaecel
4. jodee
5. karen
6. kenny
7. kriza
8. pat
9. ruvz
10. ted


Blog Entrythe college cycleApr 19, '08 6:33 AM
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every new semester:after first week:after second week:before midterms:during midterms:after midterms:before finals:after knowing schedule of final exams:7 days before a final exam:6 days before a final exam:days before a final exam:days before a final exam:days before a final exam:days before a final exam:day before a final exam:night before a final exam:1 hour before a final exam:during a final exam:after walking out of the examination hall:after the final exams, during the holiday:


Blog Entrydaddy longlegsMar 30, '08 9:58 AM
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After the consecutive weeks of crying... in my mother's lap (without her knowing), infront of the computer (without it feeling), sa harap ni Pepay, sa harap ni Ciena, sa harap ni Abi recently, at kung saan-saan pa... now I'm over with my "Daddy Longlegs".

It's so sad...
I've always felt so small beside him.
He never expressed interest directly (the classic girl story- assuming the love of a boy).
I have hurted him several times without him knowing the real reasons.
I doubted my beliefs ( the "Is it all in my mind?").
I don't know how to put this story to words.
I don't know how friends will react to this.
He left me hanging.
I'm expected to act as if everything's okay.

What's worse is that unconsciously, pinapamukha sakin nung iba kung ano yung namiss ko. Which naiintindihan ko naman because they don't know the story. Parang sampal lang yun.

Worst is, bakit after some time, kailangan niya pang lumapit as if wala lang? Siya ang nang-iwan sa ere. And I'm still hurting. Bakit dahil ba mabilis siyang naka-move on. Ha!

Nakakainis lang kasi umiiwas na nga ako, bakit nasasaktan pa rin ako?

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A Woman's Tears Adorn the Celestial Skies


What harvest do I have to show for my days of toiling
Except a tear stained face and a heart of neglected desires

I once heard the God counts every tear
That falls from a woman’s eyes
Then tell me Heavenly One,
How many tears have I thus far shed along the way
And how many more must fall from mine eyes
Before I stand on hallowed ground
How much more sadness must fill my heart
Before you consider me worthy
I feel so abundant but yet,
There is no one upon whom I can bestow these treasures
Tear down these walls that have sworn me to secrecy
As I can no longer walk upon this earth and not speak

“Twinkle, twinkle little star
How I wonder where you are…"

How much longer must the fruit that hath ripened
Remain upon the vine before it falls to the earth
And is devoured by animals
Instead of ministering to appease
the spiritual hunger of mankind

Count now instead the sweat that falls from my brow
As I labor to magnify thy kingdom
My tears are merely your souvenir
But my toil could be your exaltation

Every tear that falls from a woman’s eyes
Now adorns the celestial skies

“Twinkle, twinkle little star
How I wonder whose tears you are"
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